Changing My Thoughts

Aren't thoughts a funny thing?

I'm the queen of thinking negative thoughts about myself. And I probably haven't loved myself completely....ever, in my life. I just hate how those negative thoughts start to come then ooze out all over everything else!

I don't understand why I tear myself down because I would never dream of doing that to anyone else. I always look to lift others and be positive for them, so why don't I do it for me?!

The last few months I have been trying really hard to change this about me. Holy Hannah! It's hard! But I know that the longer I keep these negative thoughts hanging around, the longer it's going to take for me to change physically. Actually, I probably would have given up on myself months ago and found some excuse or given into some self-hating thought.

I have tried and tried to push through the negative waves and I have found that those positive thoughts really do make a difference! When I decided to love myself, every livin' lovin' inch of myself, I found that I care more about what I'm putting into my body to nourish it and what I'm doing to get my body moving each day. What a change it has been!

I do have my moments when I give the negativity a voice, but it surly does not stay around as long as it used too.

LOVE YOURSELF! Whatever stage of life you are in at this moment, love yourself completely! If you have a bad day, that's fine! Life has those. Just don't let it stay long. Switch your thoughts!

(via facebook)

And if you ever need a pick-me-up-motivational-positive-talk-off-the-edge conversation, I'm here for you! Call me! Email me! I'm serious! :D

Working on a Healthier Me!

For the past two years I have really been trying to get myself healthier. I've done two sprint triathlons and have tried to make healthier choices in food. But nothing was sticking! I don't know why.

I'm sure I could find excuse after excuse as to why I'm currently the heaviest I've ever been in my life! Would you like to hear them? Maybe some of them you've used before,

• I'm a SAHM and I get bored, so I eat.
• There is no sunshine here in the Northwest, so I've been really depressed and don't really care about things like working out.
• I don't handle my stress very well, so therefore, I eat or crawl inside myself and, again, don't care about life.
• It's too hot inside our home to workout, especially with no AC!
• Having family live with us, off and on, for the last two years has not been good for my eating habits.

And on and on. Back in April my friend mentioned something on Facebook about a fitness challenge group that she was going on. I really liked the idea of having a support group that you checked in with each night and the fact that my sister decided to do it with me helped, too. :)

So in April, I took my "Before" pictures and I wept! How did I let myself get this way?! I was truly heartbroken. Believe me, the negative thoughts were FLYING at me! I felt a constant barrage of them...hourly!

I was determined to change. THIS was now MY time and I was going to MAKE it happen! I wanted to see results.

I did INSANITY for 60 days and absolutely loved it! It was more challenging than anything that I had ever done! I also made Shakeology a meal, once a day. And I loved it! I was feeling more alive than I ever had! I felt more energized and able to keep up with my 3-year-old. Those ugly tentacles of depression were keeping their distance. I wasn't feeling as irritable and annoyed with things. It was great!

But it wasn't all glorious! There were a few days were I was literally balling my eyes out during one of the workouts. I was just an emotional wreck! It's funny how your body works when you start making lifestyle changes and how it can mess with your emotions as well. There were also mornings that I did NOT want to get up and do anything!

I just kept pushing. And pushing! I made it through all 90 days and it completely changed my life! I'm definitely NOT where I want to be and, sure, I would have LOVED to see more drastic results, but I MUST CELEBRATE what I have done!

I lost a total of 7.5 inches overall and a total of 2.7lbs! I was in shock when I saw the scale because I had been maintaining my weight throughout the entire challenge...until that last day! So, again, I know my numbers aren't huge and dramatic (YET! ;) ), but "by small and simple things are great things brought to pass"!

Today, I'm starting this!

There is another challenge group starting on the 19th of August! Contact me if you would like to join and take this new journey with me! :D